尋死覓活

寻死觅活
xúnsǐmìhuó

to attempt suicide

Wiktionary

Entry Composition

1 尋死 xúnsǐ
  1. to attempt suicide
  2. to court death
2 覓 mì
  1. (literary) to seek
  2. to find
3 活 huó
  1. to live
  2. alive
  3. living
  4. work
  5. workmanship